im hanging to this life

bt now i wonder why

i fight to get through 

bt now i wonder why

i close my eyes and hope for my last breath

because this pain is killing me so slowly

this feeling brings endless tears

all i see is the noose waiting for me...

for me to finally embrace it

i close my eyes

i cover my ears

hoping for peace

hoping for silence

i feel my peace disapearing..

as my mind fill with chaos

all i want is jus my happy ending

bt more and more 

i feel that does not exist

my pain is what poeple do not see

my pain is what poeple choose not to see

my life is falling apart

i ask for help

bt i see noone there..

i feel like its finally time

to give up and leave

Here Without You lyrics

this ones for you baby phat..luv u soo much babe.....
mising u always....

mwah

A hundred days have made me  older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight
It's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
You're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It's only you and me

Everything I know
And anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It's only you and me

so gud to be back again...=D

wuv u babe...

xoxox
hehe..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-

Im...Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakk

Hey all!!
=D
missed this place...
Thank you soo much for being around even when i wasent..
lol...=p
heheheheh...
Eid mubarik y'all..
hope all u guys have a great blast..
sry it took so long to get bak here again..
but now m bak ..
updating....
kicking and screaming
k...m out..
gotta get bak to work...
o yea...
i almost forgot..
me got a jooooobbb
lol yea mee...
finally huh..

well gtg

mis u ash puddingx...

wuv u
xoxox

hehe..
papi papi hug hug
M- M

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-( O )-

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Thaby Wisdom Moments!!!

heres a tawt..

everyones heard of the phrase forgive n forget right??

ne one ever tawt wat it wud be if u never dd dat..

if u never forgave others mistakes..

o ur own...

o forgotten the things dat hapend in tha past..

the way i see it..

they only thing it does is hold u bak..

never lets u move on..

never lets u be free of the guilt n sorrows...

n in da end it can only leave u all broken n alone...

if u hold on to every lil thing people do..

judgin them for the mistakes they have done..

wen the already learned from it..

n already tried to better them selves

wats the point of  pikin at thier mistakes

so its always better to get over it n accept ur mistakes and others..

o who knows..

one day ur gona find ur self falin flat on ur bum

n no ones gona be around to help u up...

watcha gona do den..

so..

forgive n forget guys..

life's too short for hatred n anger...

its too short to give up ur lil happy moments that make life worth living...

live ur life to the fullest with the ppl u adore...

forgive them..

forget thier flaws...

let them be themselves n let them make up for thier mistakes...

who knows how long they will be around....

so forgive n forget..

let past be the past

n let the present guide u..

ok vaane....

jus smile ur ur troubles away..

papi papi hug hug

M- M

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-( O )-

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Colbie Caillat - Bubbly....♥

ummm....hehe...
hei hunny...♥
u heard this song in a movie...n it jus reminded me of u...
combed thru the internet tryn to find this song..
i felt like i gt a high dose of love potion wen i heard it
finally i gt it....i hope u like it...
this ones for u poopieee ....
here goes...
♥♥♥♥♥

Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin dry *(safe) and warm
you give me feelins that I adore

It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

What am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm

It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go, I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while


hehe...
mwah..
i luv u my perfect star...
n all u other readers out there
hope u like this too
well..m out...
byee yall..
heheheh....

papi papi hug hug
M- M
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M Tha Castaway...

no longer wanted
no longer needed
used n left behin
m jus another picked flower
used up
thrown away to wilt
m no longer important
no longer are my tawts any meaning
no longer are my tears seen
m jus needles
jus a cast away
well..m out...
byee yall..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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