im hanging to this life

bt now i wonder why

i fight to get through 

bt now i wonder why

i close my eyes and hope for my last breath

because this pain is killing me so slowly

this feeling brings endless tears

all i see is the noose waiting for me...

for me to finally embrace it

i close my eyes

i cover my ears

hoping for peace

hoping for silence

i feel my peace disapearing..

as my mind fill with chaos

all i want is jus my happy ending

bt more and more 

i feel that does not exist

my pain is what poeple do not see

my pain is what poeple choose not to see

my life is falling apart

i ask for help

bt i see noone there..

i feel like its finally time

to give up and leave

Here Without You lyrics

this ones for you baby phat..luv u soo much babe.....
mising u always....

mwah

A hundred days have made me  older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight
It's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
You're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It's only you and me

Everything I know
And anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It's only you and me

so gud to be back again...=D

wuv u babe...

xoxox
hehe..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-

Im...Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakk

Hey all!!
=D
missed this place...
Thank you soo much for being around even when i wasent..
lol...=p
heheheheh...
Eid mubarik y'all..
hope all u guys have a great blast..
sry it took so long to get bak here again..
but now m bak ..
updating....
kicking and screaming
k...m out..
gotta get bak to work...
o yea...
i almost forgot..
me got a jooooobbb
lol yea mee...
finally huh..

well gtg

mis u ash puddingx...

wuv u
xoxox

hehe..
papi papi hug hug
M- M

(- _ o)

-( O )-

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Thaby Wisdom Moments!!!

heres a tawt..

everyones heard of the phrase forgive n forget right??

ne one ever tawt wat it wud be if u never dd dat..

if u never forgave others mistakes..

o ur own...

o forgotten the things dat hapend in tha past..

the way i see it..

they only thing it does is hold u bak..

never lets u move on..

never lets u be free of the guilt n sorrows...

n in da end it can only leave u all broken n alone...

if u hold on to every lil thing people do..

judgin them for the mistakes they have done..

wen the already learned from it..

n already tried to better them selves

wats the point of  pikin at thier mistakes

so its always better to get over it n accept ur mistakes and others..

o who knows..

one day ur gona find ur self falin flat on ur bum

n no ones gona be around to help u up...

watcha gona do den..

so..

forgive n forget guys..

life's too short for hatred n anger...

its too short to give up ur lil happy moments that make life worth living...

live ur life to the fullest with the ppl u adore...

forgive them..

forget thier flaws...

let them be themselves n let them make up for thier mistakes...

who knows how long they will be around....

so forgive n forget..

let past be the past

n let the present guide u..

ok vaane....

jus smile ur ur troubles away..

papi papi hug hug

M- M

(- _ o)

-( O )-

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Colbie Caillat - Bubbly....♥

ummm....hehe...
hei hunny...♥
u heard this song in a movie...n it jus reminded me of u...
combed thru the internet tryn to find this song..
i felt like i gt a high dose of love potion wen i heard it
finally i gt it....i hope u like it...
this ones for u poopieee ....
here goes...
♥♥♥♥♥

Will you count me in?

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
and I crinkle my nose
where ever it goes I always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under covers stayin dry *(safe) and warm
you give me feelins that I adore

It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

What am I gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmm

It starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever you go, I'll always know
Cause you make me smile here, just for a while


hehe...
mwah..
i luv u my perfect star...
n all u other readers out there
hope u like this too
well..m out...
byee yall..
heheheh....

papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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M Tha Castaway...

no longer wanted
no longer needed
used n left behin
m jus another picked flower
used up
thrown away to wilt
m no longer important
no longer are my tawts any meaning
no longer are my tears seen
m jus needles
jus a cast away
well..m out...
byee yall..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Walk Away...

walk away into the night
as ur footsteps echo to the silence
walk away with the wind
wer tym stand still
hide away ur tears
cos thats the only way
bury ur fears n doubts
coz no one cares
no one listens
cast away ur pain
cos it never worth it to care.....

well..m out...
byee yall..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Jus So......Blank

i have no idea wat im goin thru
m i sane...
i doubt so...
m bak in the darkness
bak in the midst of loosing...
loosing my luved ones
my treasures....
myself....
loosing hope of ever being normal...
hope of ever being truly happy
loosing the slim chance of ever finding myself again
my cries have no meaning
my cries have no reason
as the darkness of fear n doubt elopes me
screaming to break free
struggling to stay alive
i sit here trying to figure out my life..
tryn to figure out wat to do next...
.......
its jus a big blank....
nuthngs there.....
i dono...
i jus feel so tiny at night...

well..m out...
byee yall..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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I Luv U

every things seeem so different...
everything seem so unclear...
the wind is changing...
i feel like m loosing myself
i feel all alone...
jus wen i seem everything i love is lost...
some one holds my hands frm behind...
i find myself suprised n scared...
i turn around ...
n i find u.....
standing there right beside me....
smiling....
no matter how much the world is changing...
no matter how many people leave me behind...
i know...
ur always by my side...
right beside me.....
never leting me go....
ur my perfect star....
my better half...
my everything....
i luv u soo much....
i miss u....
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Huge Freakin Void......

hei ppls...
jus gt bak a few days bak.....
been in india for almost a month
was yucky there...
bt too depressed to write abt it right now...
life has changed too much here since i left..
its strange how the ppl u luv can change so soon..
m bak home..
n i stilll feel the void of being alone i felt there here too..
now that m literally alone...
shud i regret cumin bak..
o shud i jus get over it....
aarrgh...
i feel pathetic...
useless n no self acheivement
well....post laters....
need to find sumthing else to do.....

papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Taaaaggg!!!!

thank u muthu for lettin me do this on blogophere
=D..
heheheh..

Rules:
It's harder than it looks!
Copy to your own blog, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag five people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up!
If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: thaby
2. A four Letter Word: tree
3. A boy's Name: tom
4. A girl's Name: terry
5. An occupation: tree climbing
6. A color: turquoise
7. Something you'll wear: T shirt
8. A food: tiger meat
9. Something found in the bathroom: towel
10. A place: tree house
11. A reason for being late: tukuri akee koachetho balan madukohlee...(i still have no damn idea... O_o)
12. Something you'd shout: Tell!!!!!
13. A movie title: twilight
14. Something you drink: tang juice
15. A musical group: the system of a down
16. An animal: TIGER!!
17. A street name: thaby kat
18. A type of car: turquoise mathi negey vatharu careh...
19. The title of a song: Twinkle Twinkle littlee STARRRRRRRRRRR...... =D

20. five ppl u want to tag: the twinkling star

muuthi
lilly
xefrox
shifbobx

m outiee...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Thaby Wisdom Moments

pics by cute kat princez
staring hotgirlangel n her feet

ok so this post is dedicated uncle krevee
i know u been waiting for this one for a long tym now
i know its been long since i updated...
n i missed u blogosphere...
bt nnow m in the process of cumin bak slowly...
so here the first step...

so heres this months brain storm...
SHOOEESSSSIIIEESSS!!!
hehehe
the styles..
the new looks..
wat goes with wat
bt pls dun think m trynta be maa ingiganegen abt shoes....
cos this is jus my opinion
as i see is the new look in shoes these days
m open for ur opinions too
:D

ok so first lets see wat goes with jeanss....
of course...
no question abt it
the shoes that goes best with jean is (my personal favourite)
the sneakers
o yea..
these lil babies are comfy..
casual...
n they damn look good
gives u the whole laid bak kewl look
n also balerina type shoes ves v gulhey dho..
n also these goes with three quarter jeans ves
dhoo...

second wat goes with jean skirts...
o mini skirts..
o jus skirts..
lol..
of course wat goes better with these dan
high heels..
yea..
strapy cute ones
bt with nt dat much hieght goes well with these...
if its too high..
den u jus end up lookin like a cheap slut o protitute
noontha....

den comes the cute lil evening dresses...
o sundresses..
o party dresses..
with these ves..
v gulheyne dho
lil balerina shoes...
n flat koh hunna faivaan..
n ofcourse the heels...

lol...
dats it for now....
bt next stop is mens footwear..
se ya wen u see me..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Wat If...

heres a tawt... Wat if u cud never be the princess of ur own love story??

if u have a reply for this one pls let me know...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift

this is such a beautiful song..
i fell in love with the lyrics n the music instantly...
hope u guys like it...
if u wish to hear it...
scroll to the bottom n u will find this song in my player....

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see

dedicated to Innocent cherry
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Jus So Alone...

never knew i cud feel so alone...

everyones here with me..
everyone except u...
everything feels empty...
even the fake smiles n laughter...
ever since u have been gone ..
gettin out of bed is even hard...
baby..
i never tawt i wud feel this empty..
i feel hollow n lifeless...
breathing has become a daily burden....
sleep has been forgotten...
tears wet my pillow endlessly...
i hide away in the dark...
tryn so hard to get over the pain from being aprt from u
tryn so hard to not let ppl hear my sobs...
i need u soo much..
i need ur hugs..
ur tender words....
i need to be in ur arms again..
happy n safe...
coz thats the only place i feel home...
in ur arms...
wer our heart beats the same..
side by side....
together....
pls hurry home my shining star....
m falling aprt without u....

papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Tagged!!

me was tagged by converslogin ,anjo, muuthi n liliies
rules of this award:
1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs which show great Attitude and/or Gratitude!
3. Be sure to link to your nominees within your post
4. Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.


i wud nominate the following ppl:
my star
shifzz (lil woman)
hot girl angel (pupudee)
cec
calli-gurl

hehehehe...
me gone...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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Thaby Wisdom Moments...

ok so...
me bak n this is my first post since m bak..
hope u guys like it..
...:)...
this is sumthin that jus occured to me while i was chattin to a fwends of my star...
its nt much but i think its actually makes sense in a way..
so here the deal...
the way i see it is dat...
ulhe ehnun dhow v gadaa vefa fight vegen ulhey boi kudhin.....
skool ga ulhey dat is...
my idea is dat almost fifty percent of those boi kudhin turns haabee o v religous after skoool nimumah fahu
noontha??...
the other gooody gooody two shoes kudhin kolhu
who are jus waiting to burst out n be free
turn all gangsta like n rowdy as soon as they finish skool....
well this is wat i think...
do u agree with me o wat...
guys m jus sayin this cos i have seen this happen...
my old classmates...
claahuga enme nubai aruvaafa ulhun kudhin kolhu
mihaaru burugaa alhaigen solih vegen no ulhenee...
but god know how they realli are i guess...
so u see wat m sayin..
well m out for now
hope u like it...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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My Guardian Angel....

never tawt i wud be so lucky
never dreamed i wud be this happy
i dono wat i wud do with out u my shining star
i dono if i wud be alive....
u are always there wen i need u..
u are there to protect me..
u are there to show me the right path...
u have kept me alive...
if u wernt there i dono wat wud have hapend to me...
u always knw the best way to take care of me....
u realli are a shining star..
a perfect star with in the dark night
u are my everything
i am thankful to god that i have u more than i am thankful i am alive right now
baby...
u are my gaurdian angel...
love u always...
i dono how i wud be if i ddnt have u....
love u always....
never ever wana loose u....
cant stay alive without u...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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PS. I wud probably be away from bloggin for a while after this post...hope every one likes it...

Sum Saturday ...

(one saturdays da gang went to throw around the frisbee before mooodhah erun...)

**sigh**
i miss hangin out with my fwends....
goin out..
throwing the frisbee around...
goin to the park....
was awsome...
hei cecret i miss hangin out with u gurla...
remember the foto shoot session we dd...
lol
we both dd it jus with our fones...
but still the pics were great....
here are some of em...

i tawt this was way too adorable...hehehhe

this is at the park....loabi dhow...

this too...

and this....

this is at the mooodhu kairi

we took this platform matheega thibegen.....heheh..but cec gt the most awesome pic

our beloved raalhu gandu...
keeke....
newayssssss.....
hehehe....
cant wait to do sum more fun stuff....
ekamu test vee ma dhow...
well me mis u loadz..
m out
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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kiyavenee o den..

**sigh**
test feshunee ooo
anehkaa ves..
vai vai vai
n enmen ge test thah ves nimuneema eives...
sad dhow..
keekuranee...
lucky for me i dun have dat much....
well me outa
n guys sry for nt updatin these days...
bz bz bz
well...
wish me luck
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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