Anxiety Took Over

remember those days wen u think u just cant get through...
jus cant get your self out of bed...
jus cant even get yourself to take a bath...
well..alot of us been through that hevent we...
have u ever heard of a word called anxiety....
now i wasent sure so i googled tha meaning n it came as an unpleasant, emotional state that involves a complex combination of emotions that include fear, apprehension, and worry. It is often accompanied by physical sensations such as heart palpitations, nausea, chest pain, shortness of breath, or tension headache.....
sound familiar??
sure it does...
sumthing like this has hapened at some point rite??
but have u ever thought of a way to get rid this...
well...
here are sum things you could try

One#
Lie down with your butt against a wall. Breathing in, press one foot into the wall and breathe out as you release it. For 10 - 15 minutes alternate feet. If there is no place to lie down, press your feet, one at a time, into the ground to feel connected and “rooted.”

two#
Breathe into a brown paper bag. If you have lavender essence oil, put a drop in it for added calming. Lavender oil has a calming, soothing effect, as do helichrysum, frankincense, and majoram oils. Keep a prepared mixture in a dark glass bottle for when you need it.

Three#
Remain focused in “the now” by using all of your senses to take full notice of what you see, hear, feel, and smell. Panic is generally associated with remembering upsetting events from the past or anticipating something upsetting in the future. Holding a pet can also help.

Four#
Make a list of the things that you’re afraid could happen. Then write out calming statements that tell you the opposite of your fears, reassurances you can repeat to yourself when panic starts coming on. Also have a list of calming things you can do, such as breathing deeply and slowly, focusing on forcing the air out of your lungs, making deep breaths come naturally.

Hope these things help you in some way..
its really hard to come over this.
being in and out of hospitals is not that nice...
n especially when those doctors keep asking you what is wrong in your life...
its embarassing when you feel like they are thinking you are faking it
well..hope this helps..

YAAYYY!!! I GOT A LIL KUKULHU!!

YAAAYYY!!!!...
I got a lil kukulhu for valentines day...
hehe..yipeeeeeee
**jumps around happily***
hehe
m gona call him fookiee..:)
thnk u pookieee
it was tha best gift ever

My Gift For U..

i tawt n tawt ..
boa govandhen visnin...
finally i remembered
wen i asked u wat i cud get u this valentines day
u asked for my heart
well..
u wudnt let me cut my self up n give u tha real thing..
so i decided i wud make u a heart
hope u like it pookiee...
luv u so much..
=D
ummmmmwaaaahhhh....

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY WORLD!!!

Hapy valentines day every one...
hehe
hope u all find ur true luv today
have fun....
mwahs
xoxox

Lonely Valentine...

i know i wont be alone on this valentines day..
but y does it still feel so lonely...
I'm missing u so much

Pookiee & Fookiee Tales

Hanguraama

kuda kujaku ro than fene ey
hidhu hidhu kolhun kukurun iveyey
dhirumeh neh hashi thah gina ey
ley koaruthakun bin fure ey

kuda kujaku ro than fene ey
hidhu hidhu kolhun kukurun iveyey
dhirumeh neh hashi thah gina ey
ley koaruthakun bin fure ey

nikamechaku nama dhera kohlaa
bimu huri velihen faidhashugaa
nikamechaku nama dhera kohlaa
bimu huri velihen faidhashugaa
fenfodhakah edhi edhi ovaaa
maruvandhen aniyaa kureyey
..hmm hmm hm....woaaaoowww...hmm woaaww..

nimumeh nehbaa
ninjeh neh baa
buneveyne hey mee insaanun baaa
rahumeh neh baa kuluneh nehbaa
fenane mi noon dhuvaheh nehbaa

kalaku vey
biruvethi vey...(x4)

dhuveheh oi kan neyngey heyyy..
maruvaaney kan visney heyyy..
dhuveheh oi kan neyngey heyyy..
maruvaaney kan visney heyyy..
narakaige azaabaa hoonaaa
irukolhakah ves keh veyhey

ekuverikan dhamahataashey..
ebaive ehee theri vaasheyyyy
ekuverikan dhamahataashey..
ebaive ehee theri vaasheyyyy

ekalaange hadhuma kohlaashey
eyrun heyo goithah fene yey..

nimumeh nehbaa
ninjeh neh baa
buneveyne hey mee insaanun baaa
rahumeh neh baa kuluneh nehbaa
fenane mi noon dhuvaheh nehbaa

gislaa gislaa ronee ey
furmemun dhelo dhanee ey (x2)

fena hidhathi manzarun
kairiaa maadhuru dhurun...(x2)

kalaku vey
biruvethi vey...(x4)

nimumeh nehbaa
ninjeh neh baa
buneveyne hey mee insaanun baaa
rahumeh neh baa kuluneh nehbaa
fenane mi noon dhuvaheh nehbaa

kalaku vey
biruvethi vey...(x2)
insaanun ney biruvethivey...
kalaku vey
biruvethi veyyyy...

happy b day my prince of screams...

SHAWN PAPDEEEEE!!!
alooooooooo
hehe...
happy b day my prince of screams...
happy first birthday al
yippeeee.....
Parteee tym
heehee..
=D
hapi b day to u
hapyb day to u
hapy b day al papudeee
hapy b day to u
:D

Just another love story....

hei guys!!its story tym again. this time i'm going to tell u a story about two poeple who fell in love. a story about a guy n a girl who loved each other so much that they could kill themselves. yeah yeah...we all heard a story similar to this in our lives right..but this story is different. i beleive its worth taking sum what fifteen minutes out of our boring lives to read it. i felt my heart cry for them both. they werre so strong. they were so much in love. but i guess the world today and poeples way of thinking lead for them to live such heart wrecking lives apart for so long.

this story starts just like any other story. the beautiful girl. her perfect life, so it seemed to eyes around her. she kept her sorrows toher self. she went on life hiding the pain she felt. she was with a guy whom she didnt love. a person she said dat she adored. she did. every time he touched her. she felt her self shredding up inside. but no one saw wat she felt. she was screaming out for help in the inside, but no one cud hear her. she was a trapped bird in a cage. she wanted to be free. but thinking of all the love he was giving her, she stayed.. consoling her self every day. telling her self that everything is goin to be okay. that everything is goin to work out and that she was happy.

one day, she then met a guy at work. started hanging out. even had lots of fun. they grew close. spent alot of time together. finally when it hit them both. they were in love. the gurl was terrified. but she never felt so alive. and things never felt so right. but she knew that a storm was starting to brew up in her life. and that there was nothing that she could do to stop it. and even if there was...she didnt want to.

but she was scared to let tha guy know about her feelings. becoz she didnt know dat he felt tha same way. when out of tha blue the guy confesses his love for her. she cudnt have been happier. he made her forget all those sadness in her life. she tawt everything was perfect. but as u know i am not tryiong to tell u tha perfect love story here. the truth is dat people cudnt bare to see them to gether. poeple grew jealous of them. at some point they started to spread rumors about them. and finally got them in trouble and tha guy fired. they were devastated. the gurl cudnt hold her tears inside. she kept bursting into tears all the time. she kept blaming her self for wat happend. it tore her up inside. they were not allowed to see each other anymore. work was the only santuary they had from others to hide their love from the world. reality hit her hard. she knew that the things were goin to go from bad to worse. she knew that she had to decide between her boifriend n him. her heart already made the decision. but she was scared. how was she gona make her family understand. they wud disagree with her decision. she tried to make him understand, her life, her love for him n dat her only wish is dat he be patient for her. she kept looking for a way out. she tawt of killing her self again n again. but every tym she took that knife in her hands she saw his face. his cries for her. n she put it away.

finally she gave up. she was tired of her life. she was tired of people deciding her fate. she confronted her boifwend n told him she wanted to leave him. but she hid her reason as to y...wat cud she do.. she didnt want him yo know dat she was in love with another. he cried for her to stay but she closed her eyes n ignored it. he cried n cried. begging her to stay. begging her to change her decision. but she didnt even flinch. she wanted out. her heart confused. but she knew one thing clearer than anything...her love for her lover. dat she wanted to be with him...with this... she walked away from her boifwend.

she still didnt know how to tell her mum. she wud never let it happen. all she cud do was hope. she waited for her chance to get out from her mothers shadow. waited for that day to run away n be with him...she wanted to marry him. have babies together. grow old together. all that she could hope for now is dat he wud wait for her. wait for that day with patience until she cud be in his arms forever.

so guys this is as far as the story can be told by me... its up to u to decide tha ending ;).. life is not always smooth and happy..if u jus look harde enuf.. ull see that there much more to life than that meets tha eye

MUM CAUGHT A BIRD!!!

hei guys...=D
guess wat??....
my mom did sumthing so kool...
she caught a bird with her bare hands...:O..
lol
she found it at tha door step
n grabbed it..
haha..
tha poor thing hated mum..
it kept sqwarking out loud wen ever mum was arnd..lmao
dad even came by to fiya koshaning it...
he said dat it was a kaaalhu mainaa eko.. O.o
hehe...
n u know wat..
tha bird nearly ran away first it was in tha sitting room...
it jumped out of tha box wen i opened it to feed it...tha bugger ran out side. i had to run after it was trying not to accidently step on it..:S
n then secodn tym it jumped behind my bros bed
wen i took it to his room to keep it there for tha night..
i cant belyv tha bugger fit in that tiny place..nearly squashed it n nearly killled it
wel its been loads of fun
but so sad :(...
i have to give it away to a fwend.have no space at home for it...
so my fwend taking it in for me...:)
thnk u sweeety...hehe
u a life saver...

No promises..

Hey baby when we are together
Doing things
That we love
Everytime you’re near
I feel like I’m in heaven
Feeling high
I don’t want to let go girl
I just need you to know girl

I don’t wanna run away baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

Hey baby when we are together
Doin’ things
That we love
Everytime you’re near
I feel like I’m in heaven
Feelin’ high
I don’t want to let go girl
I just need you to know girl

I don’t wanna run away baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away
I want to stay forever
Through time and time
No promises
I don’t want to run away
I don’t want to be alone
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
Now and forever my love
No promises

I don’t want to run away
Baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna to die in your arms here tonight

I don’t want to run away
Baby
You’re the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby
Now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna to die in your arms here tonight