my broken goodbyes

my loabi baby boi,

this will probably be tha last letter i write to u....

i actually cant belyv dat i have let my self fall so deeply in luv with u.
m sory i did..
n m sory i still do.
i guess it wud have been better if we had jus stayed fwends.
at least i wud have been able to spend more tym with u...
gotten to know u more....
but i guess theres nt much room for anything like dat to happen now is there??

i have missed so much in da past many months...
missed u as if a part of my body had been taken away from me..
i have made up excuses jus so dat i can tawk to u...
jus so i can even tawk abt u
i know its pathetic....
but i cudnt stop myself frm doing so...

i have tried so hard to get over u..
tried so hard to fight my luv for u..
but i guess i fail at that too..
jus as i have failed to gain ur luv....

m sry if i have been a burden to u sumhow..
m sry if i caused any troubles for u...
i lurv u always...
m still waiting by my door step
with that jelly in my hand....
luv u always

= ur baby gurl =

Truely Forever N' Ever.....

this is a story that was once told to me by a fwend of mine...this story truly brought out tha meaning of tha phrases..."i will always love u n be here till i die..n even after that.."....so here goes..

each year he sent her roses, with a note saying

" i love you even more this year,
more than last year on this day.
my love for you will always grow
with every passing year. "

she knew this was the last tym that the roses wud appear,

she thought. he ordered roses in advance before this day... her loving husband dd nt know that he wud pass away....

he always liked to do things early, way before the tym. then, if he got too bz, everything wud work out fine.

she trimmed the stems and placed them in a very special vase, then set the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. she wud sit for hours in his favorite chair, while staring at his picture and the roses sitting there

a year passed by and it had become her fate to live with out her husband in loneliness and solitude.

then, on the very hour on valentines...the door bell rang and there were roses sitting by her door...she looked at them in shock.

she rang the flouriest shop and protested as to why sumone wud do this to her causing her such pain....the flouriest shop owner answered..." i know ur husband passed away more than a year ago..i knew u wud call n wud want to know..."

"the flowers u received today were paid for in advance. your husband always planned ahead. he left nuthn to chance. there is a standing order that i have on file down here and he has paid well in advance. u'll get them every year.

there is also another thing.....he wrote a special card.

he dd this years ago. if i was to find out that hes no longer here, i was to send tha card the following year." she thanked the florist n hung up the fone.

tears were now flowing hard. her fingers shook as she slowly reached for the card. in side the card was a note. she read it in silence....

"hello my love,
i know its been a year since i have been gone
i hope it hasent been too hard for you to overcome
i know its very lonely,
and the pain is very real...
or if it was the other way i know how i wud feel

the love we shared made everything so beautiful in my life
i loved u more than words cud say
u were the perfect wife
u were my fwend n lover
u fulfilled my every need

i know its only been a year...
but please try nt to grieve
i want u to be happy even wen u shed ur tears...
that is why the roses will be sent to u for years..
wen u get these roses
think of all the happiness that we had together
and how both of us were blessed

i have always loved you and i know i always will
but my love,
u must go on....
u have sum living still
please try to find happiness while living out ur days.
i know its nt easy,
but i hope u will find sum way

the roses will come every year
and they will only stop wen ur door is nt answered
when the flourist stops to knock.
he will come five tyms that day,
incase u have gone out

but after his last visit he will know without a doubt
to take the roses to the place were i instructed him
and place the roses where we are together once again."

sumtyms in lyf , u may find that special fwend, someone hu changes ur lyf jus by being a part of it, someone hu makes u laugh untile u cant stop, someone hu makes u belyv dat there really is sum good in da world, someone hu convinces u that there really is an unlocked door...
jus waiting to be unlocked...
reach out...
u never know wat u may get...
o wat u may find..
papi papi hug hug
=D

Walking Away...

i have nuthn left in me
except tha loneliness of betrayal
emptiness sorrounding...
having to face it alone......
having been so embarassed
having had lost so much...
so much taken away from me
with jus a blink of the eye
every thing was gone..
all my happiness
i have no choice
but to leave u behind
and walk away....
hope sum day u will understand.....


dis is a poem dat i found today while cleaning my room..
i wrote it way back wen i was in skool...
posted with a few improvements...
hope its still ok..
papi papi hug hug
=D

Wat A World.....

so many troubles in da world..
so much pain..
so much cruelty...
endless crimes..
murders
rapes...
kidnappings...
so many that i dont even know words to describe them...
wat can i say...
wat can i do....
so many godless places in da world...
so many ppl trapped
so many inoccent ppl killed in da name of righteousness..
i wish i can save them...
i wish i can do sumthing abt it....
but..
seeing all those ppl...
listening to their stories...
i thank god that i have it so easy...
my own freedom...
my own life...
my family n fwends safe....
i am thankful....
may god help them all
amen

too many reality based movies n too much free tym can realli make a person think....noontha??....
stupid boring holidays...
well...
me gona run off now..
papi papi hug hug
=D

Tha Champions - Day Four Of Celebrations

day four..
erey dho dhuvaalan nikume ulhenikoh fenunee
asemah mengey kaireega bodu beru jahan ulheythan..
so avahah shuga ah gulhaigen eyna nerunee..
eynayah kaan dheegen nikuthee...
me n shuga n gangstaarr...
asemah had to go to offyc...
so he decided to drop me off to tha first stop...
so nikuthee...
erey dhen dhuvaali thanaa fenijje ehen thaneh vess...
so we decided to chek that place out..
turned out it was gangstarr ge fwendun thake kuraa kamakah..
so we stayed there...
kuliakah kiyan fashaafi dhangadey men ananee ey...
gosa ehy iru fake meehun hedhigen aranii..dhen even ganstarr decided to be akram...n eyna ves ery..n we were suddenly tha football stars wives o :P..lmao
n emyhun nikui iruves cute kat n shuga gendhiyai isse n dhangadey ge wife o kiyaafa
security circle ah vadhaagen...
rangalhah ethanah nuvahdevey hurihaa enmen jumped on each other..heheheh
avahah tha guys pulled us away ..n avahah cute kat men nukuthee...
hehe...v majaa

dhen ekantha nimuneema cyk ga thin meehun nataalee.....
yea eh cyk ega thin meehun...
vaki hisaabakah dhevunu thanaa asemah gulhee...
so asemah aima we all decided to go to tha next spot...
it was sumwhere near STO
ethaagaves v majaa...
cute kat erey asemahge kondumachah araa indhegen neshee..lol
ethaaga ulhunu oppo noon enmen team ge..
ulhunin fot eh nagan ves...ekamu lass vaatheeve ai...

next we went to asemah mengey kurimachah..
v obi ethan...
i really had to peeee....
so furathama ery egeyah..
hehehhehe
n faibithanaa shamsu aa ves dhimaa vi
dhen nikumefa shuga men hoadhee..
v majaaa....
halhey lavaaleemey...
we even tried to get asemah to dance with a gurll
eyna ladhuvethikamun dho...
eyna yaka nukerun...
pakaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaass...

dhen 12:30 v ma ai....
las vee dho...
hehe...
ekamu varah mmajaa rey eh
hurihaa kameh nimeytheeve v dhera ekamuves...
konmekamakah nimun anaanethaa dho...
neways..congrats teamm...
we are proud of u....
GO TEAM GO!!!....
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
U THA BEST!!!
papi papi hug hug
=D

Tha Champions - Day Three Of Celebrations

day three...team male' ai....
midhuvahu furathama we had no plans to go out haveeru..
jus reygandu beyrah nikumelan..
so we were eating n neighbour eh..also my moms close fwend said lorry burujahan dhaan anaasho..
so i said yes..
eyru me cec wer home..n shuga eyru ananee...
so tyming was perfect...
jus had to go to cec ge home n change in to sumthing red..
hehehehhehe
so we went..n hama ai thanaa i found out my baby princez men ais ulheykan..
so emyhun dheytho balan dhiyai...
n ionly dshe n her cozinn cud cum...
so we decided to take them..
we forgot they were tiny n varah avahah biru gana kan..:P
two mins ves nuve baby princez birun roan feshy..
so e dhemyhun baalaigen me n hot gurl angel dhuvefa dhiyai emyhun geyah laan..
n anekaa dhuvefa beyrmagah nikuthee
emyhunaa dhimaa vetho lorry ah aran
but dhima eh nuvi..dey ddnt even cal...
so we walked around a lil n dhuvaa park kaireega madukuree
ehenmthibaa we met sum fwends...mathiu n bambooo...
they called shuga for us n told them to cum...
so ethaaga vaivefa thiby...exercise kuraa park therey...
ehen thibaa lorry aima araigen dhiyai...
n dhiya gothah geyah dhiyai...
v dhera v
ekamuves gadha kohfa enmen dhiyai artificial ah..
bamboo told ah edhimaalu v majaa hunaane yo..
so ethanah dhiyai...

v salhi ethaa S.O.F ves ai lorryga
we were ofcoz screaming oour lungs out..
dhen varubali vegen artificial thereah vanee..
ehen thibaa maa halheylavaa adu gadha vee ma dhiyai aekaa..
its was cz tha team was cumin..
hehehhee
so team balafa halheylavaafa....
alhaadhiyaima ves...cec ge lil sis...tiny angel vejje ashfaq balan..
lmao
dhen lorry fahathun anekaa dhuvee..
lol bodu train eh hadhaigen enmen dhivai gathee...
dhuvamun dhuvamun dhiyai dhen dhuvaa park kiriah..
enme fahun tiny angel ah fenunu..
so dhen ethaa grass machah enmen vetigathee...
ethaa rest kohfa tag kulhen feshy...
hehe...
eyah fahu dhen geyaa dhimaalah hingaigathee..
so we all went home to my house...
eyrun baby princez men ulhenee dhandah dhaan
so emyhunaa ekyga gose vaneee dhandah..
hehe..
with my aunts n ppl...aslu hot gurl men fahathun dhiyai...
n ethaa araa thibee halheylavan...
v majaa...
after that we each went home.. to rest n fahun nikunan...

after that cec aa ekyga nikuthee hingaalan coz she had to go hoime early...
n dhen geyah anamun gangstarr aa dhimaavegen thin meehun raraigen cyk dhuvee...
was awesome..
so we came home n shuga govaigen asemah nagaigen hingaigathee...
dhen asemah aa ekyga ves threesome gothah cyk dhuvee:P..lmao...v majaa...
dhen we had to go to airport to pik up beybe coz he was cumin bak...
so 12:30 vee ma enmen dhiyai...
so ereyge celebration ended...
to be continued koh ninmaalaanun..
papi papi hug hug
=D

Tha Champions - Day Two Of Celebrations

=D

dhen on day two....
anehkaaves enmen nikutheee reygandu...
me, shuga, cec, n gangstarr...
erey ulhunee hingaa fa
beyrumagah nikumefa....
gangstarr bunefi dhen anna lorry akah aran vaane ey..
dhen...
ethanun dhiya lorry akah ery..
n erey lorry dhuvan dhiyai....
wowww.....
it was tha best...
v majaa...
n it was with complete strangers....
v baarah dhuvy e lorry n feybi iru pootho ah thahduvey..
neither one of us except gangstaarr cud feel our pootho...coz he was standing up...
n lorry in feybee kuda henveyrah...near dine n dine...
ethaa varah mmajaa nagaa eyru...
we met a fwend of ours..bamboo n cupcake too..
so ethanuga nahshaa sakarai jeheee....

dhen egadyga asemah ah gulhaagen eyna ves genain..
genesa we decided to hit every place dat night (that was celebrating that is...)..
after that kuda henveiru place we went near this surf point kaireega oi bodu beru thanakah..
dhuvefa ulhuneeves saik in faibaagen...
ethaatherey gossa nashaalaafa dhuvefa nikumefa
ehenthanakah dhaan nataalee....
v kikuga...
kekekke
dhen dhiyai flat kaireega oi bodu beru thanah
ethaaga ves gos hutaafa nashaalaafa avahah nataalee...
n then we went to galolhu kanmathi...
ethaaga oi show eh ...
they gt sum band to perform..v salhi..
ethaaga ves nashee ....

kuli akah vai vee..
maa las vee ma n was too tired...
eyru huree one vefa...
so avahah geyah dhiyai...

that concludes our second might..
kurkohlumah fahun vagutheegothun vakivelan..
anburaa anaanun third part aa akuga..
papi papi hug hug
=D

Tha Champions - Day One Of Celebrations

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY!!!
WE WON!! WE WON!!!!
RAJJE MOLHUVEE YOOO!!!
IN YOUR FACE INDIAA.....:p
hehehehhehe
ok so ..
i have been waiting to make this post till every one was done with tha celebrations...
so dat i cud write abt it all..
i had tha best four days...in months...
so much celebrations....
dhivehinge joshaaa foari mifaharu dhakaifi dho....

ok so during tha past few days..
every tym i went out to tha road
it felt as though that we were celebrating an eid o sumthing..
never in my life have i ever seen anything like thiis happen in maldives.....
like everrrrrrrrrrr.........
hehehe..

ok so i wana tell every one abt tha amazing things we dd..

so staarting with night one....on tha day of tha match

match balan indhefa nikuthee...
bodu screeen eh kairiah dhaan kamah..hehe
e dhuvahu kurin moodhah gossa i was at shugas house...
so asemah aima fahun dhiyai..n geyah gossa change kohgen nikumevun iru match nimenee..
so we went dhuvan...to see more places n take sum picx..
n goal jehithanaaa baivaru meehun dhuvefa magu machah eryyyy....lol
v salhi egadeega..
dhen dhuvamun dhuvamun goss beyrumagah nikumevun iru magumathi furenee eyru...eki dhima dhimaalun meehun nikunanee....
every one with flags n red t shirts...
it was amazing...
n salhi adhi egadeega varey ves vehen feshy..boa boa kon....
v majaa...
erey adhi dhiyai tha most salhi dj i have ever seen..
gaumee lavainge dj eh..:P...
well wasent exactly like on..
ekamuves...
ethanun i met my fwend m.i n ethaa thiby sakarai jahan
n nesheee...
n dhen nimen kairi veema we went to dhuvan again....
we drove around taking picx tha whole night...
well dats for now...
to be continued koh kuru kohlaanun
papi papi hug hug
=D

Such A Gurl!!

i jus hate tha fact that i have to be such a gurl abt this
i hate it dat i was so ignorant to belyv dat u wud understand me...
i must be such a stupid b****
god !!!
i cant belyv i was so stupid to belyv things wud be different this tym...
i cant belyv dat u wudnt understand that i want to spend tym with u every free day u gt
wen u are at ur offyc too bz to cum see me every other day....
i hate that u have to complain to me that u spend too much tym with me...
most of all i hate tha fact that u make me feel guilty for wanting u around me all tha tym
but hey....
i guess i have no room to complain to you... do i?
after all...
i guess m nuthn in ur life....
m jus a nobody to you....
jus a stupid nobody

ps glad to be single

Thaby Wisdom Moments!!!

(pic made by my darling beybe levitan pixelfucker)
[ btw i miss u beybeee......cant wait till u get bak.. mwahz n hugz for you ]

I read this somewhere
no I heard it... form a fairy tale movie
There was this song that says....
'when you get what you want, will you want what you get?'
so... it made me think a lot
so my tiny lil head came to this thought
that when guys want girls
and nulibigen ulheyiru ( i mean setu kuran ulhey iru)
varah sweet vaane
varah romantic vaane
and does nothing out of place!
Ekamu anhenkuhjaa libuniima all that disapears
**puff!!**
dhuvas kolheh veemaa alhaeh nulaane
vaanuvaa balaeh nulaane
dont really want to spend much time with her
anhen kuhjaa ah ehves vagutheh nuvaane
Say the guy egothah ulhemun ulhemun gos the gurl gehleniyo
**sigh**
(yea doofuses its coz of that)
rulhiveemaa firihenkuhjaa ah getuvaanee ulhevunee rangalhakah noonkan
dhen anehkaa tha boi boi kujaaa wants the anhenkuhjaa
beynun vegen fahathun dhuvaanee
kurin beynun vivarah vureves bodah
n anehkaa set kuraanee..
making fake promises n stuff..)

And so, the cycle goes on and on...and on
Sometimes the same thing happens to the gurl...
(the gurl being in tha guys position..)
....err....
aan... the gurl gurl kudhin ves ehen ulheyne
**nod nod**

well dats wat i gt so far..
see ya
papi papi hug hug
=D

The Auction House Fire!!! (Exclusive Pictures)

ok so all u ppl heard abt tha fire in that auction house
so how many of you seen it??
well maybe many of ya dho...
hehe
but with tha help of asemah i have gt exclusive never seen pixs of tha fire..
thnk you asemah
hehe...
ok so we were taking a ride on tha beyrumagu after dinner
n we saw this huge cloud..
welllll....
me tawt it was a cloud...
woaaaw but was i ever wrong..
so asemah said it ddnt look like smoke...
den i spelt plastic burnin
so we went to chek it out
n der were fire trucks n stuff so we went to look...
we saw the fire...n went to take sum pix...
turnd out there was a fire in tha auction house
shuga said that it wasent tha first fire der....
well i ddnt know that....
m jus glad no one got hurt...
(no one gt hurt right??... o.O )
neways jus wanted to jus post tha pix...
here goes..

smoke from the fire

shiny fire truck

golhaa force to the rescue

scortching heat

golhaa holhithah hifaigen

ooo..pretty lightsss...

golhaa heroes

golhaa attacks fire

goalhaa ebaivanthakan...

exclusive pix by asemah and cute kat

o well
dats abt it
me gone
papi papi hug hug
=D

Happy B Day Mistyyy..

happy birthday mistyyyyy....
from me (bubs) n kreveee n shugaaa....
hehehe..
hope u hve tha best birthday eva..=D
btw tht lil pengiun in da pic is krevee:P...lmao..
aint it jus cute
happy birthday too you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to yooooooooooooooooooou
charlene moodleyyyyyyyyyy..
(yea dats right i found ur real name...kekeke..:P)
hehe...
happy birthday to youuuuuuuu....
heheh
papi papi hug hug
=D

ps. i still dono hw old u are....O.o

My Beybe!!!

(dats my beybe trying to make me laugh miadhu ol vefa..hehe loabi dho)

ok..soo...heres tha deal
till last night..no one from my family..except my mom n dad..havent been outa tha coutry... (so tha whole family is me beybe mom n dad...but dad mihaaru noolhe..)
ne ways reyga my bro left..for lanka...
for like TEN DAYS!!!..
so manyy... :(

i mean he gets on my nerves
he makes me so angry almost all tha tym
ekamu dhaa vaahaka bunees sure
i have been missin him so much....
well dhaavaahaka bunee like five days ago...
i ddnt think its was real o comfirmed so furathama ehaa alhaeh nulan...
but wen beybe started getting ready to leave n started finishing all his work stuff...
it hit me hard...
so me was like hugging his feet n crying to nt let him leave...(actually i really dd do dat..ask him..:D )
he was leaving for ten days...
n da sad part was he was too bz to spend tym with me before he left..

u ppl may think its no big deal dat hes jus leaving for ten days dho...
but me n beybe havent been away from each other for more than three days...
n eh three days ga ves i ddnt sleep at all...
i miss my beybe so much...
n he wasent even gone den..
so i decided to throw him a supprise fare well with jus me n shuga (my bestfwend) n asemah (his bestfwend)...
we were gona have it at tha park... at late night...
with a countline choclate cake chips marshmallows n a biiiiiig bottle of coke
sounds awesome dhooo...
hehehehe

we planed it n told beybe to free himself at twelve...
so we went to da park late at night...
called beybe n told him to meet us der...
he said las vaane yo n to wait.. so we dd...
dhen ehen las kuramun kuramun gos 2 am vee iruves nadhey..
dhen ehaa las veema mom ves gulhi n tld to cum home..

so lil me was in tears..n rulhi aisgen cake ehlaalee ethaa swing kairiah...
while shuga was holding it...(eyna moonah shaa ekyga..lol egady ga roan indhefa ves hini ai..lol...)
so rulhi aisgen dhiyai..hingaafa dhaan vegen...
v gadha hadhaafa
but my fwends made me take a cab...
so i finally agreed...
dhen ethaa tsunami monument kaireega thibee...
taxi annundhen

so finally tha taxi came n we got in..
u wud think we wud head straight home dho...
we were intending to... but tha taxi driver pulled this stunt n gt tha address mixed n took us for a looooong ride around male' instead of our home....
so we were wondering inside tha taxi wer he was taking us...
n ehyma bunee olhunee yo...lol ....
so we were on our way home...

dhen geyah gossa i wudnt even hold tha stuff we gt for beybe n asemah took em in
n i went to my room n rui....
asemah came n made me stop n gave me water n stuff n told me to sleep o...
n he was gona wait for beybe o...
so i was sleeping...(varah nidhaafa othy...ddnt wana deal with beybe so fake eh jessy )
n asemah came to tell me i had a visitor o..
i knew it was beybe so i ddnt wana tawk to him..
so i tld him to tell beybe to go away..
n i sat up n closed my eyes...
dhen asemah tld me to open my eyes..n nuhulhuvaan undhefa hulhuveee..
yea yeaa..
it was beybe alright....
big suppris der
but he look at me in such an adorable way..
his eyes saying sory...
n he had tha geekiest looking smile..hehee
n wat made me laugh was wat was in his hand..
it was a tiny peice of cake..
on a big cake filaagandu..
n asemah tld me dat it was da cake dat i threw...
i ddnt belyv it..
den beybe tld me da story of hw he found it..
he said he went bak there after asemah tld him wat hapend o..
n he said that it was amazing that he knew axactly wer to look for that cake...
near tha swing o..
i asked him y.. n said was it because he luvd tha swing dho ey ..
n he said no...
it was coz i luvd tha swing o....
so with that i forgave beybe...
hehe..
kiriyaa anekaa nurovunee...

so we wer aslu v starved n an ate tha sumbarine beybe bought...
n had a lil cake fight right der on my bed....
heehe was alot of fun....
he still was tha best beybe eva....
so last night he left...
n i miss him so much....
luv u beybe...

ps. i guess there is a better side to stuff...now i can stay in beybe room coz he left n hog tha quilt...
n i get tha pc all to my self...

pss. o yea n i m gona get alotta pwesents wen beybe cums bak...=D hehehehe YAAAYYY!!!...

ok m out
papi papi hug hug
=D

My so Called Temper...

ok so heres a big prob...
my fwends think dat i dont have a temper...
n dat i can never be angry at them..v bodu kameh veema noony
alt of ppl think this
so is it natural to assume that ppl will take this for grated...??
i mean shud i be alarmed that im getting stood up n stuff...
am i getting all walked all ovr
i jus hate it..
aslu reyga ulhunee mi post kuran vegen...
ekamu maa rulhi aisa huureema comp aa thankolheh dhuruvely...
hehe...
this post goes for one fwend in particular..
u know its u....
hehehehe...
so i finally gt bak at this stupid fwend of mine hu happend to be n able to bare the voice of barney...
lmao..
so geyge stereo enme adu baaru kohfa barney lava jehee...
hahaha...
v majaaa...
well me goona go..
papi papi hug hug
=D

So Sick....

lying in my sik bed
i remeber every second that u told me to tell u if i was sik
i cant call u..
i cant msg u...
i am too sik to stay at tha pc for long...
so heres wat i cud cum up with while i cud stay up...
i'm sick with a bad fever n stuff....
cant stand arnd so much
hope u see this pookiee...
ps. my bum hurts now...
so dhany...
my tym is up
papi papi hug hug
=)

My Puppy Love

i get that each and everyone hu is reading this post has had a puppy luv..right??
well...i still dont get why they call it puppy luv..
maybe coz it hapens wen we are so small dho
(puppy = baby dog)
so baby luv
my first ever puppy love was wen i was in grade four...
well obviously i had to keep quiet abt it
i never really got tha whole concept of of crushes and how it worked...
all i knew was that grown ups were to never find out abt it..
now this story is being told tha first tym ever..
i dont think anyone know abt this...
my first ever crush was class monitor with me for a term....
we were in kalaafanu skool..
and der class monitors of each class used to take turns to rise up tha flags at skool during the assembly....
so naturally we both went sumtyms too
and the teacher sent us both every were...
to tha office...supervosers room...to get books...yaadi yaadi yaaa..
well back then we hated each other...(so i tawt)..well at least i did
we wud kik each other on tha foot under tha table....
made jokes abt each other...
said mean things to wach other
he even took my stuff from me n never returned them
so u must get it by now that i must have really hated him at that tym...
then one day wen we were making two by two lines to go out of tha class for sumthing
he asked me to say "bilo" like v avas avaha..
n i said it in my head so i wudnt sound stupid
wen i actually dd say it n it came to loabi loabi loabi...
so i ddnt wana say it ...ehenve i asked him kon bilamege heyey...
n his quick reaction was to say"anhaa loabi ve ey"....
i was like ewww...no way..lol...
i cant belyv i was such a gurl bak then...
later that day his best fwend told me he had a crush on me..
i was thrilled....so excited...
but i ddnt wana loose face with my fwends ..
since bak then i still tawt boi boi kudhin gave us cooties o sumthing....
pakaaas...
well egothah hure hure.....his bestfwends started tellin me more n more stories abt him
with out me even asking...
so eventually i gt interested...
but i hid it anyways coz i was shy to tawk to him
i realized i had a thing for him...
dhen ehen ulhemun ulhemun gos one day i heard he had n ex gurl fwend :O...
yea i know already??!!....he was like nine o sumthing dho....
n turns out tha ex still liked him n wanted him bak...
i was crushed..
i knew he wud go bak to her eventually since i ddnt show interest...
but still i played hard to get..all year long..
n finally next year he n his ex were in tha same class...
n i was in another...i heard they hooked up that year...
i was torn apart...but hei i gt over it...
years later i ran into him....
turned out he was my classmates steady bf..lol...
but he still looked damn gooooood...lol...
n tha best part was he still recognised me...
so dats tha story of my first ever crush...
my first puppy luv...
majaa dho
well bye for now..
papi papi hug hug
=D

I Am Alone!!...O Am I??

lately my life has been somethings of a earth quack
all that remains is dust and the broken memories...
running and hiding frm my feelings...
enveloping my self in tha shadowy darkeness...
perishing with in my loneliness...
even though i know m nt alone
ambushed by so many troubles...
my soul screaming with in me to get out..
to get free of this wrecked body
to get away from this blinding pain...
away from this emotional turmoil
but..
i feel as though
i am saved by those brief moments of reality
wich never seem last long enuf...