Kill Me Now

i feel like m wasting my tym waiting around for u
u show no sign u care
no sign u want to be with me...
u show no love...
i cud die n i feel like u wudnt care
will u even miss me wen m gone??
i have seen ur lies to others..
i have seen ur fake stories...
i feel lyk jus another gurl
sumtyms its jus hard to make myself belyv u are realli with me...
i find myself comforting my heart
trying to get over all the hurtin u cause me
i keep trying to ignore tha fact that u realli dun care as much as i do...
i keep tryin to trick myself into belyving dat u dun ignore me on purpose.....
i dono how long i can go on...
m loosing my strength
m becuming weak....
im so sik n tired of pretending everything is ok
i jus dono wat to do anymore....
i dono wat to think
i dono wats right from wrong
i rather die by ur hand than endure this tourture....
kill me now...
before i do it myself.........

Dat Pizza Night....

okay so...

i have been meaning to write abt this for a long tym....
its abt that one night wer i made a personal record...
i ate a whole pizza all by my self..
well aslu bet akah kuri kameh
so...
it all started one day wen the gang was at tha beach...
(n by beach i mean trek...ingey)
hehehe...
so it actually started with me n shuga wanting to eat pizza dat night...
so we decided to trik tha guys in to giving it as there treat..
lols
so ekamuge thereyn tha guys were too smart for us...
n than i asked them if i ate a whole pizza by my self...
wud they give us pizza...
n they said yes..
lol
evaguthu asemah said that i cudnt do it...
well meege kurin ves i made tha same bet with asemah..
n dat tym i sadly failed...
i ate five and a half slices..
n i threw up..
hehe...
so gangsta even joined in on tha bet....
so erey moodhun araigen kamaakan fashaafa dhiyai olive garden ah...
me shuga cec asemah n gangstar
hehe
dhamun dhamun dhiyai cupcake eh ves ganegen..
hehe
kaahithun..
they odered a biiiiig chiken n mushroom pizza(..mmm.. my fav) jus for me...
yay!! ^_^
hehehehe
so ekai kai kai...
angaves vaalhuvi....
shuga got a lil disturbed
n sat thankolheh dhuruga saying that i might throw up on her...
lmao..
eyna fahun v kada vefa iny...
she said dat jus by watching me eat it...
she felt sik...
they all kept begging me to stop ..
hehe
but still i ate it..
the last piece was a difficult one to swallow...
but i dd it...
hehe...
yay me!!=D
my tummy was so biig..
n enme fahun dhaan vandhen iny jeansge gohves naalhuvaa
**blushh..**
hehe..
i had such a big tummy..
adhi dhaanves jehunee hingaafa
lols
i tawt i wud throw up at my first step...
but i ddnt...
instead i threw up vaki hisaabakah gossa....
:P
justice building bidhoshah...
lols...
now i havent told tha guys abt this part yet...
only asemah n cec knew abt me throwing up afterwords...
hehe...
well..
either ways..
i ate the whole pizza...
n i see that as my personal record...
:D...
hehe..
even if tha guys keep saying i cudnt have eaten all of that..
lol
i was a lil supprised myself...
asemah said that i how cud so much fit into such a tiny lil me..
lols
neways....
thats dat pizza night..
hehehe
papi papi hug hug
m outy...
=D

M- M
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Me Vs My Conscious

wat am i to do...
everything is falling apart inside of me...
nuthing makes sense no more...
everything is such a mess...
my future looks shattered
my brain unable to process all of theses things...
so many bad things..
in such a lil while...
i hear myself screaming to get out
screaming to break free
my heart crumbles up everytym i get a glimpse of reality
i feel unable to trust ...
unable to luv
unable to cope with this lonliness
no one dares to try understand me..
no one dares to care...
i keep beggin to them
beggin for luv..
beggin for them to care even the least...
my heart keeps tellin me to leave them all behind
n jus go away....
but wat can i doo..
i find my self frightened
sorrounded by the loneliness i now face everyday...
i fear myself living alone..
dying alone...
all alone...

10 Things I Hate Abt U....Voice Of An Angry Heart...

i hate that you always keep makin empty promises....
i hate it that u make me feel lyk m tha one to be blamed for ur negligence...
i hate that u always try to show my faults wen problems hapen...
i hate tha fact that i still luv u so much even wen u are tha reason i cry myself to sleep everynyt...
i hate u never try to comfort me wen i cry
i hate that i cant stop luving u...
i hate that i wana hate u so much
i hate that u never are around wen i need u
i hate it that u always say sory n never mean it
most of all.....
i hate that u always take my luv for u for granted.....

My Onlyn Addictions...The Confession..

MIG33

so first of all cums my favrite...hell yea...
its Mig33....
hehehe....
its kool
its fun
its like i have my own lil family der...
a lil cyber family...
my bestfwends...
my bros..
my sistas...
so many close fwends...
mig33 is like my dual life...
m proud to say m addicted to it...lolz...

MXIT

ok so second of alll....yea baby
it's MXIT
why??.....coz its so private...
it awesome..
kool features...
v obi graphics....
mxit has given me so many memorable tyms
its tha best...
but then again most maldivians don even know wat mxit is...
its kinda depressin...

MSN

well third is non other than MSN itself
hehe..
well...
u all will know y anyone wud get addicted to MSN...
lols
all in all its tha kooliest...
=D

BLOGGER

welll fourth...
MY BLOGGY....
hehe my proudest addiction...
bloggin is my addiction...
my passion...
my hobby...
wat more is der to say....

FACEBOOK

den cums facebook
wat can i say...
m hooked on facebook
everyday i chek my inbox...
hehhe
ekamu evarunves i dun even accpt all tha requests n stuff ves gina faharah..
lol
but dhuvas kolheh vee ma nuhurevigen kuraanan...
hehe...
ekamu evarunves vadhe inan...

owwwkay...so wat else......
i guess dats abt it...
hehe..
m outy...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Happy B Day Uncle Krevoooo....!!

(uncle kreveee with his b day cake...hehe )
23.07.08

hehe

i know u will hate it wen i call u this...
:P but still...
its ur b day dhoo...
kukulhu faiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....
mwah
happy birthday sweety...
hope u have fun on ur big day...
biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig huggies n pappiiies
**gives biiig bear huggy**
i jus wana say..
ur my precious treasure...
u took care of me wen i was in trouble...
u understood me wen i dd sumthing wrong...
u were always der for me
well almost everytym...:P
ur tha best...
m blessed that i have u in my life...
wuv u forever poke baby...
papi papi hug hug
byeee.....

M- M
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Tagged!!!!

(btw this pic reminds me of uncle krevee...lmao)

me was tagged by muuthi kokiiiiz n shiphattey

-5 things i luv-
i luv my fone....
i luv mig33 n mxit
i love the internet connection all arnd the globe....without it there be no fones...no internets...n without it i dun have ma bloggy...with out it i cant survive
i lurv my freedom and tha fact that i still live
i lurrrrv ma baby boi

-5 things i hate-
i hate cheaters, players, backstabbers....etc...dey all cum under same catagory
i hate tha fact that almost every cute guy is smoking nowadays
i hate da jelly fish that keep stingin me at trek...although i admit they are cute sumtyms...
i hate guys hu suffocate me
i hate anyone hu tries to get in between me n my bestfwend.....

-5 people m gonna tag-
cec
calli-gurl
afxoon
muthu

lilly

hehe
dats abt it
m outy...
papi papi hug hug

M- M
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The Ditching Cycle...

ok so
i actually gt tha idea one night wen i was trying to sleep...
i went over tha cycle over n over gain..
nafter a few minnutes it came together
n it made sense...
hehehe
so here it is

STAGE ONE
--------------------
ok so at this stage is those days wen koleg firsts starts
o tha bigining of a nrew sem
the student attends all tha classes...
she is very punctual n attentive...

STAGE TWO
--------------------
ehen dhamun gos
oneday.....
she accidentally over sleeps
maybe she was up doing a project o an assignment...
so she ends up missing her early morning class...

STAGE THREE
----------------------
so at this stage
she stays up late the night before...
wakes up on tym
butr has a dire need for sleep....
n decides that its ok to miss one more class..
n that it wont effect her attendance average....
so she intentionally ditches her class

STAGE FOUR
--------------------
at this stage...
she feels satisfaction from all tha good sleep...
n starts to ditch classes more frequently...

STAGE FIVE
--------------------
at this stage an accumulation of subconscious guilt starts to occur
so she starts to amend her behavioral patterns....
she starts attending classes regularly again....
achieving perfect attendance

and so tha cycle goes on.....
hehe..
well i think this is tha case in most ppls skool life...
lol
well m out for now
be bak with more later
hehe
papi papi hug hug

M- M
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M Back

hei guys srry dat der was no new posts...
its jus dat my net connection kendifa
wat a bummer...
:s
v vaiii
**sigh**
so much to write abt
so much to tell
cant wait to post
well m back now
so many posts shall folow..
lmao
well adios...
papi papi hug hug
thnx for all the comments...
hehe

M- M
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Cheating Women....

ok so heres the thing abt women hu cheat
in other words hu most ppl refer to as "badi" or "sluts "
y they are called so i will never understand

so this part is basically abt the goin on discussion in blogshper abt wat badi realli is
in my beleif...
"badi" and "sluts" are just labels used by ppl hu feel sumwat jealous
or even angry towards sumone
basically coz of a guy...or coz of a fight over a guy
to tell the truth ..
i think it was started by gurls hu felt insecure and angry
frankly its jus sad
even tha idea of gurls callin gurls badi is laughable...
hehe
if u call another gurl badi...then wat does that make u??

i admit that its ok to call a gurl "a slut" o "a badi"
if she goes around sleepin with every guy they meet
or...
if she is walkng around breaking guys hearts jus to get over her extreme bordom
for her own amusement

in my view...
men often call women they are "badi o "slut"
wen at sumpoint in life
that gurl may have refused him...
o left him for his own agnorant behaviour
sounds kinda unfair don it
wat shud we gurls call u guys wen u cheat on us o break our hearts....
"bidi???"
"basturd??"
"badi??"
u tell me...
if such a label can be planted on a gurl
why cant the same apply for men...
o is there a name for guys like this that i do not know of??...
i ask myself this question everyday...

well...anyways bak to tha real point where u guys criticise us so much for
"why do sum women cheat??"
truthfully,
its mostly coz of u guys
i dun mean to sound all feminist here
i admit there are gurls hu deserve the badi label
n also those hu cheat for no aparent reason....

but still...
its mostly coz of how guys treats them...
sorry to tell u...
but dats jus how it is...

you may have heard endless stories abt how gurls have run off to another guy
n hw broken up the guy was coz of dat gurl...
do they ever say y tha gurl was gone..nt realli
all there is dat..
the gurl saw another guy..
a much cuter one...o sumthing n left ey
eesh y dun u guys grow up

frankly i kinda pity tha fools
they are jus too arrognt to admit to there mistake...
then again hus evr does

women are actually ashamed to admit they cheated o in the least tawk abt it
thats why u never knw the real story
i belyv that the story must be heard from both the sides to know the actual truth

ne ways...
i think that most women cheat because they feel like there is no other way
and why is dat
women have emotinal needs that most men fail to understand o fulfill
and those guys hu read this n feel threatened that ur gurl might run off...
dun suffocate them...
coz too much attention can drive away a women aswell..
common knowledge shows that if a guy is possesive
the gurl is much more likely to end up hating the guy

i know by now most of you guys reading this post will probably be hating my guts
frankly wen it cums to this..i don care...

don judge us by stories u hear....
give us a break
our lives are hard enuf as it is
and also....
remember this...
u guys do it more than gurls do...
u are the reason gurls started it....
y isnt that story such a big deal...???


well m out...
hehehe
papi papi hug hug

M- M
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Thaby Wisdom Moments!!!

hei boi boi kudhin...
this ones for u doofuses out der...lol
so have u ever wondered why gurls try to make you jealous....
n jealous nuveema rulhi anaane u guys dheke
n jealous vee ma ves bae faharu rulhi aadhe dho..
u might think salaamatheh nethey dho...
but u stupid fellows don really get it
dat jus means that gurls want u to pay more attention to them...

CAUTION:
dis is only in cases were ur girlfwend is tha one trying to make u jealous ingey...
if it is another girll....
it dun mean they want u to cum to her...
o wants to make u jealous
its means "leave me alone" most of tha tym...
so beware!!!

ok so wat u doofuses can do is...
show them u luv them..
show them u care
buy roses for her with out any reason...
take her out for a romantic walk....
maybe even do sumthing to supprise her...
like u cooking her a small candle lite dinner...
cum on...
u cant say dat u dont have atleast one romantic bone in ur body dho
gurls jus do this coz they want more attention frm u
coz they want to make sure u still care for them
like u dd wen u first started goin out n stuff
take this frm a gurllll
lol...
pamper ur gurls a lil..
u will see tha results...;)
in more ways than one....
hehehehe
papi papi hug hug

M- M
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My Horrible Leg Burn

ok so last friday..
v majaa dhuvaheh....
hehe.....
y wudnt it be dho....weekend eh viyaa
hoonu gadgakun dho ekamu..
but goody for me that every friday me n da gang go to tha beach....
dhen ehenve nikuthee dhuvaalan...
to pass tha tym till three...
nikumefa i wanted to chek out sum biker gloves..
so escape ah vadhely...
vanan vegen cyk in fai ban ulhumuge thereyga....
my leg touched tha silencer.... :s
**ouch**
still hurts....
aslu cyk in feybi iru ...
my leg rangalhah bimuga nujehey...
so fai binmachah reach kohli gadeega jehunee....
lol...dhen avahah funmaaly cyk in....
v bodah iny fihifa ekamuves...
.dhen avaha geyah aisa beys heky....
ekamu evarunves geyah ai escape ah vadhefa...
lolz

my fihifa in than....:(...so biiig

o n friday ga ehen fai bahataigen ves moodhah dhiyain..
fenu thereyga ehaa thadheh nuvey so it felt good..=D
ok so.....
then anekaa ves tuesdayga araigen vareh ga moodhadh dhiyai
gos v sakarai jehin...
me n shuga wrestled...
hehehhe
shuga says she won but we both fell ekoh..:P
lolz...
dhen dhemyhun vetun gadyga burn vefa in thanuga meehaku maabaarah ai levunee... o_o
so burnvefa in skin nehtunee..
fahun thadhuvaan hedhyma ingunee ves
so avahah birun ery..
lolz..
dhen geyah aisa raibeys jehy ethaa.....
mihaaru iny faaru hikifa
ekamuves hingaairu v thadhuvey :(
biruveri meehege loleh hen iny faadakah..:P
hehehe...


my evil eye vatharu scar...

aslu enme bodah dheravany bodu scar eh inaane theeve...
a biig ugly scarrr....
ugh!!!...
well...
dats for now...
hehehe
papi papi hug hug

M- M
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