Me Vs My Conscious

wat am i to do...
everything is falling apart inside of me...
nuthing makes sense no more...
everything is such a mess...
my future looks shattered
my brain unable to process all of theses things...
so many bad things..
in such a lil while...
i hear myself screaming to get out
screaming to break free
my heart crumbles up everytym i get a glimpse of reality
i feel unable to trust ...
unable to luv
unable to cope with this lonliness
no one dares to try understand me..
no one dares to care...
i keep beggin to them
beggin for luv..
beggin for them to care even the least...
my heart keeps tellin me to leave them all behind
n jus go away....
but wat can i doo..
i find my self frightened
sorrounded by the loneliness i now face everyday...
i fear myself living alone..
dying alone...
all alone...