Wat If...

heres a tawt... Wat if u cud never be the princess of ur own love story??

if u have a reply for this one pls let me know...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift

this is such a beautiful song..
i fell in love with the lyrics n the music instantly...
hope u guys like it...
if u wish to hear it...
scroll to the bottom n u will find this song in my player....

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see

dedicated to Innocent cherry
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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Jus So Alone...

never knew i cud feel so alone...

everyones here with me..
everyone except u...
everything feels empty...
even the fake smiles n laughter...
ever since u have been gone ..
gettin out of bed is even hard...
baby..
i never tawt i wud feel this empty..
i feel hollow n lifeless...
breathing has become a daily burden....
sleep has been forgotten...
tears wet my pillow endlessly...
i hide away in the dark...
tryn so hard to get over the pain from being aprt from u
tryn so hard to not let ppl hear my sobs...
i need u soo much..
i need ur hugs..
ur tender words....
i need to be in ur arms again..
happy n safe...
coz thats the only place i feel home...
in ur arms...
wer our heart beats the same..
side by side....
together....
pls hurry home my shining star....
m falling aprt without u....

papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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Tagged!!

me was tagged by converslogin ,anjo, muuthi n liliies
rules of this award:
1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs which show great Attitude and/or Gratitude!
3. Be sure to link to your nominees within your post
4. Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.


i wud nominate the following ppl:
my star
shifzz (lil woman)
hot girl angel (pupudee)
cec
calli-gurl

hehehehe...
me gone...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Thaby Wisdom Moments...

ok so...
me bak n this is my first post since m bak..
hope u guys like it..
...:)...
this is sumthin that jus occured to me while i was chattin to a fwends of my star...
its nt much but i think its actually makes sense in a way..
so here the deal...
the way i see it is dat...
ulhe ehnun dhow v gadaa vefa fight vegen ulhey boi kudhin.....
skool ga ulhey dat is...
my idea is dat almost fifty percent of those boi kudhin turns haabee o v religous after skoool nimumah fahu
noontha??...
the other gooody gooody two shoes kudhin kolhu
who are jus waiting to burst out n be free
turn all gangsta like n rowdy as soon as they finish skool....
well this is wat i think...
do u agree with me o wat...
guys m jus sayin this cos i have seen this happen...
my old classmates...
claahuga enme nubai aruvaafa ulhun kudhin kolhu
mihaaru burugaa alhaigen solih vegen no ulhenee...
but god know how they realli are i guess...
so u see wat m sayin..
well m out for now
hope u like it...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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My Guardian Angel....

never tawt i wud be so lucky
never dreamed i wud be this happy
i dono wat i wud do with out u my shining star
i dono if i wud be alive....
u are always there wen i need u..
u are there to protect me..
u are there to show me the right path...
u have kept me alive...
if u wernt there i dono wat wud have hapend to me...
u always knw the best way to take care of me....
u realli are a shining star..
a perfect star with in the dark night
u are my everything
i am thankful to god that i have u more than i am thankful i am alive right now
baby...
u are my gaurdian angel...
love u always...
i dono how i wud be if i ddnt have u....
love u always....
never ever wana loose u....
cant stay alive without u...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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PS. I wud probably be away from bloggin for a while after this post...hope every one likes it...

Sum Saturday ...

(one saturdays da gang went to throw around the frisbee before mooodhah erun...)

**sigh**
i miss hangin out with my fwends....
goin out..
throwing the frisbee around...
goin to the park....
was awsome...
hei cecret i miss hangin out with u gurla...
remember the foto shoot session we dd...
lol
we both dd it jus with our fones...
but still the pics were great....
here are some of em...

i tawt this was way too adorable...hehehhe

this is at the park....loabi dhow...

this too...

and this....

this is at the mooodhu kairi

we took this platform matheega thibegen.....heheh..but cec gt the most awesome pic

our beloved raalhu gandu...
keeke....
newayssssss.....
hehehe....
cant wait to do sum more fun stuff....
ekamu test vee ma dhow...
well me mis u loadz..
m out
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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kiyavenee o den..

**sigh**
test feshunee ooo
anehkaa ves..
vai vai vai
n enmen ge test thah ves nimuneema eives...
sad dhow..
keekuranee...
lucky for me i dun have dat much....
well me outa
n guys sry for nt updatin these days...
bz bz bz
well...
wish me luck
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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Thabby Wisdom Moment....

i know its a lil late this month
but hope u gys who read my wisdom moments will excsse me ..
me have been sick for a while now
but m bak on my feet n runing around
thnk u god
heheh
well so this months wisdom moment is based on wat i went thru at the hospital
well...docs here are stupid..
i shud thump them
wat stupid idiotic doc wud ask a patient who is sufocating her name..
idiot..
i mean i cud barly breath o see..n he was askin me my name..n ddnt even listen wen ash tld him my name
dat baaka
i shud punch him n show him how much it hurts..
o n needles hurt
ALOT!!!!
o yea n dd u know the doc makes the pain worse:S
yeap they do...
the damn doc pressed my tummy n stuff n made the pain worse..
i cried even
stupid doc...
next tym i see u i will thump u...beware
**sad thing is i dun remember how the doc looked like...but i guess i will settle for thumpin the next doc who pulls a stunt like dat**

n also i learnt that if m smiling wen i go to the doc..they wont take me seriusly...
everytym its either sit n a wheel chair o on a stretcher thingy..
otherwise docs dun belyv u sik..
dis is true..
if i am in pain..i always belyved that smiling n a lil fun can take a away atleast sum pain..
but the docs dun take me seriusly if m smilin even the least..
**hmph**
o n the clothes that they give u to wear wen u take X ray i so damn comfy...
reaaaali comfy
lol..
n also wen ppl push u around in a wheel chair fast its damn fun..:D
but then again v boa anburaaa...
o n hospital toilets are dirty
**sigh**
to tell u the truth i always tawt hospitals were clean...
even the toilets..
but they v grosss n yuckyy....**horror struck**
n they stink O_O


o yea my final wisdom abt my experiences so far at the hospital...
peeing in a cup aint that easy..
darn it they made me pee in a cup...**blush**
o yea n the hospital is so much fun sometyms..
but regretfully sometyms its like the most depressing place in da world

but hei wen i heard the ultra sound scan of a women on the bed next to mine..it was happy..
i heard her babies heart beat
was beautiful..:)

o well m out for now..
hope u guys like this n have a lll fun with it
papi papi hug hug


PS. ambulances in male' suck big tym

Froxen...

so lost
so alone
darkness till sight ends
everyone stares
everyone glares..
everyone judging
tryin so hard to fit in
trying so hard to move on
froxen in time
alone n still
waiting till my breath passes...

papi papi hug hug..
M- M
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Regret....

its so strong

how u learn so much
yet still regretting
knowing so much

knowing ur fwends ways
but so much bad
yet have to accept the fact
that u are no match for ur fwends

turning ur bak to their needs
yet regretting
of all ur deeds

regret is all u can think of
but nt much to loose
all the choice i have is
take it o let it loose..

hehhe...
dats it for now..
papi papi hug hug..
M- M
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-( O )-
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LMAO!!!!

hehe...
ok so...
sry for the no updates...
havent been able to jus sit dwn at the pc..
been quite bz..
bt hei
tag season again dhow... me was tagged by shana n lilii kokii :) thnx guyssss.... heheh... so here goes...

1. whats ur latest addiction? my star....**dreamyyyy**
2. what are u listening to? Dil dey dia hey
3. how late did u stay up last night and y? till seven am...cudnt sleep n was chating
4. who were u with last friday night? i was with my ash puddingx
5. do you think u will be in a relationship 3 months from now? ofcourse
6. when is the next time ull see ur closest frnds? tomoro hopefully....
7. what were u doing this morning at 7am? trying to sleep
8. what radio stations do u listen to the most? umm...dun recall listening to the radio...
9. what was the reason u last cried? coz i cudnt breath.... O.O
10. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high? yeap...was wierd...
11. What’s the fifth text in your inbox say? "thaby can u get ol bbe?"..:P
12. Where was the last coffee shop u went to? fizzes
13. What’s ur outfit right now? striped t-shirt n shorts...
16. What were you doing at 11pm last night? having dinner with my star
17. Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed? my bro....
18. Will you be driving in a year? lmao...me n driving...yea right...dat will be tha day
19. Is there anything that you are craving right now? YES!!! Donuts...**yummmmmmmmm**
20. When did your last hug take place? jus tonyt actually....**space out**sigh**
22. Have you ever started a sentence with “No offense, but…”? yeap i have...n no offense the person who came up with this tag has too much free tym...
23. Do you drink tea? sure..y nt
24. Have you ever been arrested? haha...nope
25. Have you rode in someone else’s car today? nope
26. Have you made a mistake this past week? i dont recall....
27. Who was the last person you texted? my ash puddingx
28. Are you happy with your life right now? actually more than i ever imagined...
29. In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence of sleep? i supose....
30. What’s the connection between you and the last person you texted? my hubby to be.... ;D...hehehe

hei so its my turn to tag dho...
hehe
yayyyy
**gives evil look**
hehehe
i tag...ecoze prince(my ash puddingx) n hot girl angel n jumpuddingx n muuthi kokiii n afxoon
**pkew**
well...
m out
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Bak Again....

hey guys...
me back on my feet...
been sick for so lng
n been confined to my bed for so long
starting to forget how outside looks like...
hehe...
but m back on my feet..
n m glad to be back...
=]
thnx for visting my bloggy while i was gone...
n sry for the no updates for so long
v dhuvas vejje dhow...
hehehhe
well will try n post more after this
heheh
well gota run now...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Happpy Aniversary My Star

(my lil present to my star.....)

baby...

luvin u cums naturally...
deep n passionately....
mish u as a i mis my breath in suffocation..
baby u are the blood pumpin thru my heart
without u ...
o baby i cant imagine livin wiithout u
even for a moment

everyday...
i wait by the fone waitin for a msg...
a call
o maybe even a call me bak
i dono y
i cant sleep if my ears dun hear ur voice at night...
i mish u so much..
i wana be with u all the tym
never wana leave ur side
never wana be apart frm u

baby my heart feels alone...
baby it mises feelin the warmth of ur hugs
my ears mis the care in ur words
my eyes mis seeing ur face..
my arms mis being wraped around u...
my lips mis the smiles u brought up on it
baby every part of my body calls out for u
every thing in my conciounse calls out for u..
speaks ur name...

m craxy for u my shining star
ur are my perfect other half..
u complete me..
loving u always..
with all my heart
forever
ur butterfly
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Tribute To My Baby Sistas...

ok so this post is dedicated to all my bab sisiiiiss....
ampuddingx...(hot gurl angel)
ajoo kokiizz...(chocolate cake)
muuuuthi kokiiiizzz (muuthish)
liliii kokiiiizzz (liliiiiies)
n lil woman sisiiii (shifzbobz)
hehe...
n all my other lil sisiies out there...
hehe remember baby sisiis...
m here if u ever need a thing
i will try to be there for u guys no matter wat
luv ya baby sistas..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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-( O )-
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Funny Stuff....

ok so lets cont. dhow..
lets see were dd i leave off..
o ye...mige dhosha ai dhow maako ge gf..
so erey dhen dhiyai dem..lols..
i was waiting to see maako ol frm msn..
i keep all of my contacts with out deleting dem..kameh jehunas baindhavegen
blok in keep in the undhagoo kuraa ppls grp...

ok so..finally
yesterday morning..
i saw the dude ol..
n ery faadehge kikeh..
i was finally gona take all my anger on to him..
all the anger i felt for all my probs...
i said hai to him n started yelling..
n hot gurl angel ves grp kureee....

da poor dude cudnt keep up with our typin
lols hes v slow..
n frankly nt good at all in eng...
so finally he gave the pc to his fwend...
n maako ah vegen eyna ge fwend cute kat aa dhimaalah echehi kee..
lols
like i wudnt know wen maako chats..
lols

ok so dhen ehen maako ge fwend aa zuvaabu koh koh fa..kuliakah dc vejje...dc v gothah dhen feshee ehenmeeheh chat kuran..lol...
on maako ge add..
turns out it was maako ge gf..
lol
hahahahhha
cant help laughin
the gurl starts yelling at me..
n the onli that that cums out of her mouth is u whore...:s
n she called my baby sis n me a prostitute...
frankly i dun mind her saying dos stuff at me..
its jus at my baby sisi i hate..
dhen out of no where
she tell me i have no guts..
n she wana meet me o:s
lol to do wat???
n she wanted to cum to my house to meet me..
m nt stupid..
mom kurimatheega fight kuraakah cute kat nethin..

so i tld her to meet me at the park...
n dhe said to meet her at artifiacial...
n kept callin me a coward...
lol
da damn gurl wanted to fight with me..
my star wated to go..
but i dun..
its jus not worth it fighting over a guy i left five months ago..
m nt that pathetic
besides...
m happy now with my star
y bother....

nm dd u know later last night maako ge gf wrote n away msg to my star
saying dat aslu cute kat alun maako beynunvegen ulhenee o..
wat a laugh
i wudnt give up my happy life for a doosh bag lik ehim...
never in a mill years....
my star is my life..
my star is my luve...
my star is my every thing
i luv u my ashpuddingx..
heheh

bt hei i gota run...
m outy..
hehe....
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Funny Story.....

(before u guys freak out..m ok..this is a pic of like five months kurin wen i tried to kill my self..but now i jus wonder y i even bothered....totally nt worth it!!! )

first of alll sory i havent posted for so long
i mishd u bloggy....
ok then here the thing...
normally i post abt funny stuff that hapens in my life dhow
well heres sumthing hilarious...

everyone who visits my blog almost on a daily basis
willl be familiar with the name maako on my shout box
first of all maako is my ex boi fwends..
i left him coz i had to make a choice between me n my family..
n he wasent the kinda guy worth giving up everything for
i was thinking of it...
even tried killing myself once..

but then again this story isnt abt the past...
this is abt sumthing that hapend almost two weeks ago..
a few days ago..
i found dat a scrbble had been made by the user name maako on my shout box saying he wants me back n stuff...
angwi lil me tld him to stay out of my shout box...
den...
like a day later..again some one scribbled on my shour box...
with the name maako...
the dude swore at me..
said bad things to me...
things i dun wish to hear again..
n things dat no one says to me...
so i got angwi...
ekamuves fithaa laigen huree...
lately my life has been filled with things abt fwends betrayals n shit head guys i said no to.... spreading stuff abt me
wat loosers :S...

i had forgotten abt the whole maako things..
wen suddenly
one night wen me n my star n cherry were having dinner
some one knocked on the door....
cherry was the one who opened the door..
n there were two gurls...
one fat gurls wearing a vail..n one thin gurl with no vail
(sry jumpuddings luli aisa emeehun dheke..so wana call them fat n stuff)
she was asking for me..
ok so i went to the door...
i ddnt know wat was up ..
she kept asking abt my skool n stuff..
eesh
so detective of her...
hah!!

dhen she said dat she was maako ge gf..
kekekke
frankly i was a lil suprised
maako was the kinda guy that always made me feel ugly..
nt coz he was more good looking than me
i never compared our looks
it was coz he always made sure i knew i was older than him..
he kept telling me his fwends say m muskulhi..
muskulhi my ass..
man i look younger than u :S...
ask any guy...

lols
sry m nt trynta be the kinda gurl hithun maa reethivegen ulhey..
but this tym its jus true...
ok so back to the story...
his gf came to tawk to me abt the shout box thing..
evaru kamakaa gey dhoshah ana gurl eh
how pathetic..
she was younger than me...
so she says..
have no idea..
so i told her it was no big deal coz the onli thing i gt angwi at was the swearing
n den she kept goin on n oooon abt how bad maako was feeling abt sumone scribbling onmy shout box by his name saying he luvs me..

eehs so fake
frankly i think maako gf ah maako vadhe in than bust vee thocheh...
o well dats jus wat it think...

adhi majaa thankolhakee
maako ey ai maako bitu govaigen cute kat megeyah...
beyruga ves huri... :S
kuda kuda vaguthu kolheh therey amila bitu ge agu vataalee amila ah..
if i cud i wud thump his ass into tha ground..

ok so this post is getting a lil long...
willl post the rest in the next post
hehe..
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Geri Koshi... O_O...

so finally...
we got to the geri koshi..
lols...
was so much fun...
we fed it
touched it..
n also touched its horn..
so much fun...
^_^
hehhe...
MOOOOOOOOOOOOoooo...
O_O


the dark black cow....i think its a boi boi cow
we fed him tooo


we fed the gurl gurl cow too...
she was alota fun..
she kept cumin after me even wen we left...
lols
i guess she was jus so hungry
hehehe
n i touched her horn...
i think that annoyed her a lil..


the baby cowww....
so teeny tiny....
hehheheh...


the big mountain of cow pooopyyy
smeelt horrible..
actually i had no idea it was cow poo first
i was jus trynta get the grass growing on it..
nearly touched it
**faint**
but ddnt...
**phew**
hehehe
but beybe put his big feet on it...
jus for the fun of it
he said it smellt good..
O_O
wonder were he smellls from


he even touched it with his hand
EWWWWWWWWWWWW....
GROSSSS!!!
**covers nosy**


the baby cow sad coz his mommy cow walkin away...
lols
so adorable
hehehhe...


the cow saying bye bye to us...
hehhehe

well m saying bye for now too...
be back with more laters...
see ya
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Thaby Wisdom Moment....

ok so first of all..
m realli sry that this months thaby wisdom moment is late
ok so...
this is jus a lil thiing i realised tonyt while tawkin to my star

dd u ever notice that wen a gurl describes a guy
they always..
n i mean always
describe a guys personality first
like hes realli nice n caring...
o hes such a great guy...
dho...

bt a guy...
will always start describing a gurl by commenting on how she looks
yea its like that always...
it goes like this
yea shes cute n thin
o kalhukoh kurukoh
noon tha

this is jus how it is...
jus a simple realisation of mine...
jus let me know wat u think though...
m out for now..
its late
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Jus Another Night

ok
so its one of those nights again...
nidhhi ananee hama...
so sleepy
**yawn**
jus waiting for the clock to strike ten...
jum puddinx megeyah dhaan...
but right now...
all i can think abt is fallin asleep in my stars arms..
**sigh**
**yawn**
well jus wanted to post a lil...
ne ways m out..
gona bug star now..
hehe
m gon apoke his nosy
**does wierd grin**
heheheh
=D
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Jus Perfect...

every day
every moment
i dono how its possible
but i luv u more n more

every second
every minute u are gone
i dono how its possible
but i miss u more n more

everything about u
i find adorable
every tawt abt u
makes me smile

baby u are perfect for me
dont u see...
baby u make me feel safe n serene
dont u feel it...

i know our lives are jus startin to blossom
but i know dat i wana be with u
for the rest of my life
i know we are right
i know wat we have is awesome

baby i would give up my life
if dat meant saving u
but i jus cant spend my life without u
baby m dead without u
m jus another breathin body waiting for it to stop

u are the reason my heart beats
u are my reason for a smile
u are my reason i survive
baby m lucky to be with u
luving u always
ur butterfly...
papi papi hug hug
M- M
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Peekaboo!!!

hei all

m back after a some tym
sry i was a way
lots of stuff hapend
will tell u guys abt it one at a tym....
first of all..
aslu i ddnt update coz i lost my net connection
bt happy to say i gt it back now...
second of all..
me sick in bed
this is the fun story
i gt way too sick so beybe (levitan-pixelfucker) and my star n cherry took me to the hospital..
like dhanvaru
ddnt wana go but still..
at sum point wen my star said i was coughin blood
i freaked
O_O
so i regretfully agreed

dhen wen we went there...
they made me sit in this wheel chair
hate that damn thing
made me feel worse
n then they took me to the emergency room..
n doc came in n cheked on me n said i was ok...
like nuthn was wrong with me
i shud thump the dude....
he shud feel tha pain i felt...
idiot!!
ok so the doc asked me if i was thinkin n stuff..
i said no
n then the doc said that it was either too happy o too sad
i definently wasent sad
i was freakin laughin....
these are the best days of my life
so i guess m sick coz m happy
eesh wat a hypothesis dho
m sick coz m too happy
so...
den beybe tld him abt the blood n stuff..
so he decided to give me a injection
WICH WAS HUGE!!!
its still soar
**siquints eyes n shivers jus even thinkin abt it**
luckily for me it was on my arm
nt my bum

after that...
while we were waiting for beybe to pay the bills n stuff
me n my star n cherry played around in the emergency room..
sort of a healing process for me
we played around with aalll the gadgety thingamabobs
cheked each other pulse
temperature
listened to our heart beats...
lol..
ADK emergency room kuda kuree
was fun
finally we came home
n andhumachah thirivee...
heheh
all in all it was a fun night..

well m out for now..
tym for me to get back to bed
papi papi hug hug
M- M
(- _ o)
-( O )-
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PS. this roadha mas still rocks!!!